I have this inspiration at 1 am , and this is the first time i post something at this blog ever since I reached Miri this semester.
It's hard to be loved and loves people. When you are loved by some people, you might not have the same type of love that wanting to be with someone who loves you. Or it is just not the love you want or the people who love you. When you loves people, you might not get back the love that you want or that person not want to be with you when you want to. Love is so simple and yet complicated. Love itself is a very special and simple feeling but love get complicated when it forms a bond between two or more people. Love causes jealousy, fight, argument, marriage, divorce, and the list go on. It has the good and bad part of course. When you do not love, or not to be loved, you feel lonely. I always believe that we can live good without love, but today somehow I feel I am wrong all this while. Suddenly I feel the emptiness inside my heart and I feel like it's calling me so that it can be filled but I don't know who is my heart calling. It has no one to call. So I think my heart just get tired of calling, filled with disappointment and it finally stop calling for anyone. Actually it has been calling for someone, but I do not allow my heart to call out because sometimes I think I am just being used that my heart even got cheated by it. I closed it and it rested not so well. It starts to get sick and painful. That's when I start to treat it with junk food and lots of unhealthy ones. I believe it will not recovered that fast. My heart is never mend since 3 years ago. It was alright at first but I can't believe it just get worse here. I am suddenly so sick when I talked about the past but I love thinking about it. Sick because I think talking about this, just make me like a stupid girl. I would try to stop myself talking about this from now onwards and I know I should look forward. I kept and keep too many stuff inside my heart and I have no one to share it here. I have ones previously but recently this 'ones' just successfully prove that he's a guy like no difference from other guys. It got bottled up for too long that until sometimes I don't even know what has happened and what is going on. I hope my heart stay strong and continue to breath. Breath within the blood without being filled with anything else though I need to.
*wish myself all the best* =)
It's hard to be loved and loves people. When you are loved by some people, you might not have the same type of love that wanting to be with someone who loves you. Or it is just not the love you want or the people who love you. When you loves people, you might not get back the love that you want or that person not want to be with you when you want to. Love is so simple and yet complicated. Love itself is a very special and simple feeling but love get complicated when it forms a bond between two or more people. Love causes jealousy, fight, argument, marriage, divorce, and the list go on. It has the good and bad part of course. When you do not love, or not to be loved, you feel lonely. I always believe that we can live good without love, but today somehow I feel I am wrong all this while. Suddenly I feel the emptiness inside my heart and I feel like it's calling me so that it can be filled but I don't know who is my heart calling. It has no one to call. So I think my heart just get tired of calling, filled with disappointment and it finally stop calling for anyone. Actually it has been calling for someone, but I do not allow my heart to call out because sometimes I think I am just being used that my heart even got cheated by it. I closed it and it rested not so well. It starts to get sick and painful. That's when I start to treat it with junk food and lots of unhealthy ones. I believe it will not recovered that fast. My heart is never mend since 3 years ago. It was alright at first but I can't believe it just get worse here. I am suddenly so sick when I talked about the past but I love thinking about it. Sick because I think talking about this, just make me like a stupid girl. I would try to stop myself talking about this from now onwards and I know I should look forward. I kept and keep too many stuff inside my heart and I have no one to share it here. I have ones previously but recently this 'ones' just successfully prove that he's a guy like no difference from other guys. It got bottled up for too long that until sometimes I don't even know what has happened and what is going on. I hope my heart stay strong and continue to breath. Breath within the blood without being filled with anything else though I need to.
*wish myself all the best* =)
be strong. if u need someone to talk to, u know where to find me. cheer up girl. be strong and life doesnt end there okay? =)
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